Keep your promises to yourself
I didn't want to run this morning.
We just moved into a new apartment.
Which means a new bed.
New pillows.
The temperature wasn't right.
It's a totally new environment.
Not to mention building furniture and organizing all of the things you've accumulated and realize you don't need (but keep anyway, "just in case").
Aka...I didn't sleep well.
We ate dinner at 9pm.
I'm usually in bed by 8:30.
(this is not a joke)
I woke up at 6:45am.
Dehydrated from the singular beer I drank whilst building a bar cart (necessary?)
I usually have a bunch of water and my cup of coffee in my hand by 6:30.
On a normal day, I'm ready to hit it by 7.
Not today.
7:30 rolled around.
The coffee finally found its way to my hand.
Then 8.
And all of a sudden, I let out what had been building in my mind from the minute my head left the pillow,
"I don't want to do this"
Yep, that came out of MY mouth.
The one who is always showing Instagram how much he's running and how much fun he's having doing it.
The one who just had the best day ever, running the NYC Marathon with friends and family by his side to support.
"Maybe I'll just skip it today it's been a long week"
But that's how it starts.
The slow burn.
First it's just one day.
Then it's two.
Harmless right?
Wrong.
It's much more than skipping a workout.
It's breaking a promise you made to yourself.
Do you know what they say is the fastest way to lose all self confidence?
Lie.
To yourself.
Tell yourself you'll do something, feel the dopamine hit just from having a mere thought,
Then back off.
"Next time"
"It's no big deal"
The cycle continues.
On and on and on...
So
With the fear of letting myself down in my heart,
I begrudgingly laced up my shoes,
Put on a hat,
Strapped on my watch,
And hit the road before I could conjure up more excuses.
And you know what?
I'm so happy I did.
It wasn’t easy. It wasn’t fun. But it was worth every step.
Cheers to proving your fears, doubt, and negative self talk wrong.
Have a day.
-Dan